I know. It is borrowed. Like the ground where my home sits, the air I breathe, and the wife I love: all lent to me for a time.
That may help in thank yous and thanksliving with which I am struggling today. This may be the only “I am struggling with thanksgiving” blog of the day, but I still must write it.
You know the aggravations: a letter from the IRS, your phone is shattered, now you can’t finish the building project in time for someone to use it – again, and your body is betraying you in new ways. Beautiful leaves that must be raked. . . . Whine. Complain, and so on.
Entitled. I don’t like it when I sense it in others, and like any adolescent; I can’t smell it seeping out of my own skin, covering my eyes, nullifying my touch, pervading my thoughts.
I act as if any of it really belongs to me. Studies on empowerment show ugly things about us, and the attitude comes quickly with very little at stake.
But, all is on loan. All will be “turned back in” in, well, a shorter time than I probably think. Even with my beloved, our vows we spoke said, ” ‘Til death us do part.”
King David said, “Like a servant looks to the hand of his Master, so I look to the ‘Giver of all Good Gifts’.” David, a king, was smart to know he owned much the same as his servants. Nothing. He was steward of an entire country, though. That heavy weight made him profoundly “response-able”.
Thanking Someone for what has been loaned makes more sense than thanking yourself once a year for what you think is yours ‘by right’. If it were yours, couldn’t you hold on to it one second after death?
So, my question today is, “Does my thanksliving attitude make me more response-able?” And, “Does my response-able preparedness make me more creative and innovative?”
Like a clueless man, staring at the hand of the Giver of All Good Gifts I alternately cringe and grow expectant. I suspect David’s translation is smarter.
So, I’m grateful for my next breath, dinner tomorrow with the family, wind, leaves I am able to rake, and you. For the time we’ve been loaned.